Home
[ Cocoon and Butterfly Effect ] [entries|friends|calendar]
MaluLani

[ website | Naomh's Forum ]
[ userinfo | livejournal userinfo ]
[ calendar | livejournal calendar ]

Ahhhh [15 Nov 2005|03:08pm]
I realize what I miss most about the internet. It's that ability to hide yourself from the everyday world and just escape to a place where everything else doesn't exist but who you are, or who you portray yourself to be for other people. It's definitely an interesting concept, and all in all I've lost the need for it. You know...to bury myself in some place unknown so I don't have to deal with the extremely petty people of today. But occasionally I miss rambling on about things too deep for my high school friends to understand; things that are extremely important to me that I don't neccessarily bury, but that I never share because it is so beyond their comprehension.

If only a world existed in the real world that could make you completely relaxed and yourself like the internet does. The internet lets others see exactly what you want them to see and you never worry about them seeing your flaws because everything is covered up but what you let them see. Where as in real life, the face relays a thousand emotions that you would most likely never want your peers to see.

I tell myself that my room is the only other place besides silly internet places that lets me do that, except there is no interaction with people. And it is so because my room is the only place where I let myself feel completely free to do, say, and act exactly how I want to. You know when you feel like being completely socially unnacceptable and you just want to sit in your underwear? Well, my room is where I can do that.

Now I'm not saying it should change and all of us should be able to sit in the coffee shop with just our udnerwear on. I just wish it were easier to be vulnerable, without having the negative emotions that comes along with being vulnerable in the real world.

But I can't solve life's problems. I just like to contemplate them. It's one of my true secret joys in life that again, so few young or old people will ever understand. It goes along the lines of that bubble effect. Most people live in bubbles and the people who live outside them are so truly rare that I think you're lucky to meet atleast one in your lifetime.

Who knew so much could be buried within one person? The truth is most people don't even wonder what abysses lie in a person's mind and soul that are filled with random thoughts of life .They don't even wonder because it's so beyond their mental capacity, or so beyond their bubble's capacity. Either way, there is a huge part of me that most people will never even begin to see, let a lone understand because most people live in the bubble. And for the most part, we don't share that in common. You can pretend to live in the bubble and maybe even fool yourself into thinking that you can go through life's journey in denial of such deep ponderings. But it will always resurface and you can never live happy that way again because once the bubble is popped. It's popped and then you're left to the big wide world.
God touched 1 cocoon with the butterfly effect. . .

hrmmm [30 Oct 2005|07:33pm]

 

scroll to bottom to copy the html

</td></tr>

IMDB's Top 100 Best Movies of All Time
generate this HTML for your own page at ObeytheFist.com


Rank

Movie

Didn't See It/
Started It/
Finished It/
Hated It!

1

Godfather, The (1972)

Started It

2

Shawshank Redemption, The (1994)

Finished It

3

Godfather: Part II, The (1974)

Started It

4

Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King, The (2003)

5

Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers, The (2002)

6

Casablanca (1942)

Finished It

7

Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring, The (2001)

8

Schindler's List (1993)

Finished It

9

Shichinin No Samurai [Seven Samurai] (1954)

10

Star Wars (1977)

Finished It

11

Citizen Kane (1941)

Started It

12

One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest (1975)

Finished It

13

Dr. Strangelove or: How I Learned to Stop Worrying and Love the Bomb (1964)

14

Rear Window (1954)

15

Star Wars: Episode V - The Empire Strikes Back (1980)

Finished It

16

Raiders of the Lost Ark (1981)

Finished It

17

Memento (2000)

18

Usual Suspects, The (1995)

19

Pulp Fiction (1994)

20

North by Northwest (1959)

21

12 Angry Men (1957)

Finished It

22

Fabuleux destin d'Amélie Poulain, Le [Amelie] (2001)

23

Psycho (1960)

24

Lawrence of Arabia (1962)

25

Buono, il brutto, il cattivo, Il [The Good, the Bad, and the Ugly] (1966)

26

Silence of the Lambs, The (1991)

Finished It

27

It's a Wonderful Life (1946)

Finished It

28

Goodfellas (1990)

29

American Beauty (1999)

30

Vertigo (1958)

31

Sunset Blvd. (1950)

32

Matrix, The (1999)

Finished It

33

Apocalypse Now (1979)

34

Pianist, The (2002)

Finished It

35

To Kill a Mockingbird (1962)

Finished It

36

C'era una volta il West [Once Upon a Time in the West] (1968)

37

Some Like It Hot (1959)

38

Third Man, The (1949)

39

Taxi Driver (1976)

40

Paths of Glory (1957)

41

Sen to Chihiro no kamikakushi [Spirited Away] (2001)

42

Fight Club (1999)

43

Boot, Das (1981)

44

Double Indemnity (1944)

45

L.A. Confidential (1997)

Started It

46

Chinatown (1974)

47

Singin' in the Rain (1952)

Finished It

48

Maltese Falcon, The (1941)

49

M (1931)

50

Requiem for a Dream (2000)

51

Bridge on the River Kwai, The (1957)

52

All About Eve (1950)

53

Se7en (1995)

Finished It

54

Monty Python and the Holy Grail (1975)

55

Saving Private Ryan (1998)

Finished It

56

Cidade de Deus [City of God] (2002)

57

Raging Bull (1980)

58

Rashômon (1950)

59

Wizard of Oz, The (1939)

Finished It

60

Sting, The (1973)

61

Alien (1979)

Finished It

62

American History X (1998)

63

Mr. Smith Goes to Washington (1939)

64

Léon (1994)

65

Vita è bella, La [Life is Beautiful] (1997)

66

Touch of Evil (1958)

67

Manchurian Candidate, The (1962)

68

2001: A Space Odyssey (1968)

69

Treasure of the Sierra Madre, The (1948)

70

Great Escape, The (1963)

Finished It

71

Wo hu cang long [Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon] (2000)

Finished It

72

Reservoir Dogs (1992)

Started It

73

Clockwork Orange, A (1971)

74

Amadeus (1984)

75

Modern Times (1936)

76

Ran (1985)

77

Annie Hall (1977)

78

Jaws (1975)

Finished It

79

On the Waterfront (1954)

80

Braveheart (1995)

Finished It

81

High Noon (1952)

82

Apartment, The (1960)

83

Fargo (1996)

84

Sixth Sense, The (1999)

Finished It

85

Aliens (1986)

Started It

86

Shining, The (1980)

Finished It

87

Strangers on a Train (1951)

88

Blade Runner (1982)

Started It

89

Metropolis (1927)

90

Duck Soup (1933)

91

Finding Nemo (2003)

Finished It

92

Donnie Darko (2001)

93

General, The (1927)

94

City Lights (1931)

95

Princess Bride, The (1987)

Finished It

96

Toy Story 2 (1999)

Finished It

97

Kill Bill: Vol. 1 (2003)

98

Great Dictator, The (1940)

99

Sjunde inseglet, Det [The Seventh Seal] (1957)

100

Lola rennt [Run Lola Run] (1998)


Which movies have you seen?

butterfly effect. . .

Quizzes...ah [27 Sep 2005|05:35pm]
I'm updating. Wooo!

You Are Western Boots

Your boots can sure walk a long mile - but they're still chic!
butterfly effect. . .

Back to quizzes [22 Aug 2005|09:37pm]
Your Nail Polish Color is Red

How you're unique: You have an incredible eye for style and art

Why your style rocks: You are classic and classy - and that's hot!

What this color says about you: "I'm smart, sassy, and sexy. And I know it."


What Color Nail Polish Best Fits You? Take This Quiz :-)
Find the Love of Your Life (and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance.
butterfly effect. . .

hehe... [10 Aug 2005|11:05pm]
ski
You're Skittles!!! You have a very interesting
personality, you're so unique. You're the kind
of person who always thinks outside of the box.
You're also a very accepting individual, and
believe in inner beauty.


Which kind of candy are you?
brought to you by Quizilla
butterfly effect. . .

LOL Bowling!!! [10 Aug 2005|10:59pm]
HASH(0x8b97a5c)
Bowling Shoes- fun, unique, and vintage, you don't
care a lot about what other people think. You
do your own thing and are your own person. You
have fun no matter what you're doing and enjoy
being surrounded by friends. You still need
your down time though![please vote! thank you!
:)]


What Kind of Shoe Are You?(new and updated results!!)
brought to you by Quizilla
butterfly effect. . .

[09 Aug 2005|09:09pm]
me
You're like me! The intelligent loner. You're shy
at times but friendly, and you are never weak
and always independent. You are incredibly
intelligent (wise beyond your years) and have a
talent for many things (sports, music, art).
You have a kind and warm personality and enjoy
the simple things. Like hanging out with
friends and watching movies at home. But you're
sometimes quiet nature makes you a bit of an
outcast and a mystery to people. No matter how
pretty you are or smart or athletic, you just
can't seem to break into the crowd and be
noticed. Don't worry, try to be more outgoing
and speak out when you have more to say. Don't
hide behind your books and sports and computer,
get out there and get noticed. You also have
deep desires in life and feel vunerable and
alone at times. Don't feel sad either, What
helps me to express feelings and dreams that I
can't say to people, is through my writting.
Maybe you should try.


What kind of girl are you? (with pix!)
brought to you by Quizilla



Kind person
Your wise quote is: "Be kind to unkind people,
they probably need it the most" by
Ashleigh Brilliant.
You try to look beyond apperance, try to give
people second chances and are probably very
kind. Understanding is your biggest personality
trait, and thoose you can see through should be
grateful. If they aren't already. You detest
narrow minded people, because they can't see
what's really there. Facades is not your thing
and you strive to always be who you really are.


What wise quote fits you? [pics]
brought to you by Quizilla
butterfly effect. . .

United Kingdom?! [08 Jul 2005|11:53pm]



You're
the United Kingdom!

You're a much weaker person than you used to be, but you still
act like you did when everyone looked up to you.  Despite this, you're
probably a better person than you were when you had so much power over those
around you.  Though you do have a strange fascination with jewels and monarchs,
which lets you play in castles, but also end up leading a sort of tabloid lifestyle.
 You really like the Beatles, even more than you like Oasis.

Take the Country
Quiz
at the Blue Pyramid



Ech..The UK. I have bad memories about the UK. lol.. I could have atleast been a country that I liked.
God touched 2 cocoons with the butterfly effect. . .

Ehh... [07 Jul 2005|11:56am]
I'm really hungry. WHy don't I eat, you ask? Well, because I'm picky and I don't feel like eating anything that we have here to eat. :( So, I'll suffer for another 5 hours until Mom comes home with food. I guess. Probably.

So, yeah, I have a blog now, but I still like this journal. It must be all my fond memories with it :p

Okay, going to work today, with my siblings, because I babysit. I really need a new job. Really!
butterfly effect. . .

Blogger [30 Jun 2005|12:58pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]
[ music | When you Believe ~ Whitney Houston ]

So, Amy has me stuck on blogger now. I can't help it! I think I need a breath of fresh air :p I'll still come back and post on this one every now and then. But if you'd like to come check out my new journal just type naomh.blogspot.com into your browser and it'll take you there.

Cheerio all!

God touched 2 cocoons with the butterfly effect. . .

WHoo [08 Apr 2005|01:31pm]
[ mood | drained ]
[ music | Pie Jesu ]

I ahevn't posted here in AGES it feels like. lol. And my wording on this thing is so huge. I think my computer's text size was out of proportion of..something lol.

Anyways, I finsihed the school play with a bang. I got a job. I don't start until May 1st, but atleast I have one lol. And I'm still in the running for Valedictorian at school, except I haven't taken my ACt or SAt yet. SO...*pulls hair out* hehe we'll see how that goes.

We're planning on buying a new computer so I might actually be able to get on here and post again. I've missed all my online friends. It's hard to keep up with everyone when you don't have internet or a computer :p The only person I ever get to talk to anymore is Jess.

But life is good. I think I'm actually going to Prom since my dear *cough* friends at school didn't leave me alone about it for two months straight. SO i borrowed an old Prom dress form a friend, scrounged up some money, and are planning to get some shoes at Goodwill. My friend is doing my hair I think before I go. Plus, my friend has a Hummer limousine that he offered us a ride in to go. SO it all sort of fell into place like a week before it's actually supposed to be here lol. I didn't want to spend lots of money on a dress and I'm only really going because I feel terrible not going after everyone has just about got down on their hands and knees and begged :p. But, we'll see how it goes :p I just have to iron the dress hehe. It was a little crumpled from being in my friends storage :p

I don't really want to go to to Prom. I just keep hoping that somehow it will end up okay. Knowing that God still loves me at the end of the night helps. lol. But..anyways....that's how my life is going right now..

Can't wait for my little concession stand job to start and school is out so I can actually make some real money. We're going over today to my brother Todd's work to see if he really wants to buy this truck from this guy. and he's in the middle of picking a college too, so it's hectic. But good :)

Miss you all! God Bless!

butterfly effect. . .

I'm Back!! [19 Oct 2004|06:54pm]

My Dear Livejournal! How much I've missed you! Seriously though, ther eis no life when you can't put it down on computer.
 Hehe just kidding. And you thought I was serious! Guess what everyone. hehe. I got into National Honor Society and I'm so excited. We get inducted in front of the entire school and then we get to go out to eat with our parents and skip school before the real work begins and I'm so excited.

  And... my computer has broken so now I'm at the library writing y life story and I miss NF so much it hurts. I wish I had some time, or some money, or a computer so I could spend more time there and give it the atention that it deserves, but it's all in God's hands. And you know school is getting easier s I'm having more energy to just enjoy myself, and when I say school is getting easier I do mean that I'm not so worried about life's problems and chalk it up to just needing grace and faith, with that everything seems to work out fine for me because everything else I can trust God for. Wow. What a life revelation lol. I love it and God's been so good to me lately. He's only taking me forward.  The only down side of life right now is that my mom is broke and that I don't get to spend enough time at NF. I miss my girls!


 Now for fun since I never get to do any of this stuff anymore and at this point I completely and utterly deserve it.

 Fresh Prince Of Bel-Air
Family Matters
Full House

Fraggle Rock
G.I. Joe
The Muppet Show
The Electric Company
Pre-Elmo 'Sesame Street'
Are You Afraid Of The Dark?
Secret World Of Alex Mac
Nightmare Before Christmas
Welcome Freshman
Kids Incorporated
Space Cases
Roundhouse
The Muppet Show
Muppet Babies
Eureka's Castle
The Elephant Show w/ Sharon, Lois, and Bram
Pinwheel
Today's Special
Calliope
Salute Your Shorts
Hey Dude
Legends Of The Hidden Temple
You Can't Do That On Television
Figure It Out
G.U.T.S.
What Would You Do?
Double Dare
Rocko's Modern Life
Bevis and Butthead (well, I never watched it...)
All That

Ren And Stimpy
Clarissa Explains It All
The Torklesons
Pete And Pete

Stick Stickley
Goodburger
Angry Beavers
Sponge Bob
Hey Arnold
AAH! Real Monsters
Loony Toons
Animaniacs

Pinky And The Brain
The Babysitters Club

He-Man
She-Ra
Alvin and the Chipmunks
Tom and Jerry Kids
Bobby's World
The original Power Rangers

Peter Pan and the Pirates
Funhouse
Underdog
Kablam
Gullah Gullah Island
Richard Scarry
Dumbo's circus
Ocean Girl
Mystery Files Of Shelby Woo
Snick Snacks
Dunkaroos
Fruit Roll-Ups
Koala Yummies
Where In The World Is Carmen Sandiego?
Nick Magazine
The Goonies
Sixteen Candles
The Heathers
Nightmare on Elm Street movies
Ernest movies
Radio Flyer
Adventures In Wonderland
Homeward Bound
The Adventures Of Yellow Dog
Milo And Otis
Neverending Story

Who Framed Roger Rabbit
The Lion King
Labyrinth
101 Dalmations
The Secret Garden
Pete's Dragon
Hocus Pocus
Land Before Time
Dinosaurs

Fern Gully
Secret Of NIMH
Gummi Bears

Care Bears
A Little Princess
My Little Pony
Black Beauty
Rainbow Brite
Lady Lovely Locks
Candyland
Sorry!
Trouble
Don't Wake Daddy

Mousetrap
Jenga
Don't Break The Ice
Hungry Hungry Hippos

Cooties
Tinker Toys
The castles that made tea sets
Sky Dancers
Polly Pocket
Hypercolor t-shirts
Lite Brite
Scrunchies
More than two pair of oversized socks
Tight-cuffed jeans
Side Ponytails
Stirrup Pants
Jellies
Saddle shoes
Barbies
Beanie babies

Tamagotchies
Yo-Yos
Choose Your Own Adventure
Pogs
Goosebumps
American Girl
Island Of The Blue Dolphins
Saved By The Bell
Step By Step
TGIF on ABC

Sabrina The Teenage Witch
Boy Meets World (I still say it's the best sitcom ever made)
Clueless

Mork And Mindy
Simpsons (again...never watched it)
Flipper

Eerie Indiana
Third Rock From The Sun
Tracey Ullman Show
Ghost Writer
Growing Pains
Titanic

Felix The Cat: The Movie
Jonathan Taylor Thomas
Home Improvement
Tom And Huck
My Brother And Me
Kenan And Kel
Hanson
Inspector Gadget
Teenage Mutant
Ninja Turtles
Power Rangers
Hot Wheels
Creepy Crawlers
Easy Bake Oven
Flower making kits
Weinerville
Wild And Crazy Kids
Playdough
animorphs
Rainbow Fish
If You Give A Mouse A Cookie
Bailey School Kids
Wayside School
Mrs. Piggle Wiggle
Boxcar Kids (Isn't it the Boxcar Children?)
Ramona Quimby
Roald Dahl
Amber Brown

God touched 3 cocoons with the butterfly effect. . .

I'm back! [15 Sep 2004|06:57pm]
[ mood | happy ]
[ music | Alan Jackson's Greatest Hits ]

What? What? Who's here? yes, It's me! I've been so busy lately I can barely keep up with showers let alone three journals. I now officially have one for school, one for internet, and one that I keep the really personal stuff in. I had to come back though because I kept getting emails about 'concerned' NFers, stuff that I couldn't just pass off unfortunately. I would love to do that stuff but it was good for me to come back and get myself back in gear for NF. I've had such a school school school mentality it's almost like I forgot I had a life beyond grades? Wait! I do?! Oh yeah. haha.

And I missed everyone. But I've loved talking to everyone on the phone. I'm still just thrilled about being able to talk to Becky over the phone. And I so want a job at a good bookstore! But I must work on my grades lol. I need to quit dreaming about stuff I can't have and realize that I have a lot of things that other people don't and I should be thankful for. Well, I'm still in the running for Valedictorian. I don't know what's going to happen this year. I just know that if I do get it, I don't want to kill myself for it. I want to know that I got it because of why I work so hard, because I love the satisfaction of working really hard for something and then accomplishing that. I would be happy with Valedictorian then.

Anyways, one of my friends is supposed to be here soon with some clothes for me that doesn't fit her anymore! EE! I think I only had an inkling about that in the back of my head that I needed clothes and God has already supplied me with it. He's taking care of me so no one worry lol. And I'm finally beginning to let Him. It feels so nice to be pampered lol. Even if it's spritually, or I should say especialy since it's spiritually lol. It's a whole new world in God's arms instead of a few feet away with your feetglued to the ground.

Okay, so I still have lots of homework to finish! Miss you all! *hugs*

butterfly effect. . .

Do I get colors soon? [29 Aug 2004|03:07pm]
[ mood | confused ]
[ music | Strong Enough to Be Your Man ~ Travis Tritt ]

SO, I had to read my Friends page to get in the mood to write in this thing. I'm so confused. God is not the author of confusion, I know. But I'm confused anyways.

It's absolutely pointless to try to understand my feelings and what's going on in my life and even when I try to throw it all out the window and just 'live'. It doesn't work, and it doesn't work adding God either. It's not that I'm mad at Him. I'm just so frsutrated. I give Him my burden, and then I pick it back up again. Honestly, I'm just sick of trying and now living is just depressing lol. I want to scream, cry, and laugh all at the same time.


I have absolutely no control what goes on in my life, or my emotions, or what's going to happen tomorrow. I can't even get myself motivated to pray. Which is so annoying, btw. I'm on the edge. Seriously. Not of sanity of course, just at the end of my rope, if that's put better. One more thing and I could just scream and the hardest part is it's not like my whole life is falling apart so I just break, cry it all out, and let God handle it because I have nothing for a justifiable pity party. Just small things that are draining me that in the end aren't even worth mentioning. SO everytime I start to cry, I can't lol. There's not reason to cry except I'm tired.

My hope got all washed out, my seed of faith was sucked dry of water and is dying, and where the heck am I left? I'm left with my family who is feeling just as bad as I am. And it's so frustrating because I can usually bring myself back up emotionally but I can't and I laugh and smile a lot but it's not that complete happiness. I'm desperately trying to hold on to God while going to school and being with all these worldly creeps and I can just feel myself slipping away and what can I do? Pray? I've done it over and over again and it's just not right. Half my heart wants the world and the other half is clinging to God for dear life. I just want to live in Him. Why is that so hard??? Can someone explain this to me? No, no they can't. God has only ever been the one who could put my feet on solid ground and I can't find my way back to Him. I'm just stuck in this web of confusion. And it happened last year too. I just took a break from God the half year of school and this summer I've been working to get back to Him. Now school has started again adn I'm back where I left off last year. and I won't let it happen.


I Will Not. It feels like dying. Doing this, pretending to be close to God when you're not. I'm so close to desperation and throwing my load on God's shoulders but everytime I get close I find this stupid satsifaction or will to keep going as I am. I hate it. I would love to just break down and let everything loose. I'm just living in tension, and growing hatred. And who knows what else.

I love school. I love learning. I love talking to people. But how does God live through me when I go to school? How? AHH! I'm so frustrated. Sometimes I can peek out of this little hole I'm stuck in and I see what I'm missing with Jesus and I just keep fighting but it feels like it's all in vain. It really feels like that. I'm so ready to give up but so ready to fight for everything I'm worth too.

I'm feel like the rope in Tug of war and my heart is the knot. Where is my peace? And why did it leave? I miss peace so much, and I can't rest until i have it. I can't just be okay living away from Him anymore. I can't because that's not who I am anymore. Soemtimes I can get into acting stupid like the kids at school but I come home and lie in bed at night and I feel wrong. Like I let something precious slip away and even farther out of my reach.

I wish I could turn back time and take what I had during the summer and take it to school with me. I need that peace in Him while I'm going to school. I don't want to want the world or any part of it. I just want to be content in Him and I want that to shine through in me. I'm dying for that.


I'm fighting so hard emotionally that I'm left with nothing to give anyone else. Or anything else. My school work is fine. Whenever I don't want to feel anything more I just do homework lol. So, I have A's in all my classes still. But I wish I had the energy and happiness to just enjoy all the blessings I have right now. And I'm still just as blessed as I ever was. But a nice house doesn't make you happy, obviously. I'm struggling just as hard as I ever was :p I need pray. I need Him again. I'm falling and I miss Him, in all honesty. I miss Him so much.

Love you all.

butterfly effect. . .

SO much stuff to do... [23 Aug 2004|03:43pm]
[ mood | calm ]
[ music | Your Raise Me Up ]

How do people keep up with three lives? I have one on the internet, one at school, and one at home, and journals to go with each one. Mr Boyle, my ENglish teacher, assigned us to do in his class so that is now my third journal and I have one next to bed that I write down all my non-internet stuff in. Well, I add you people in there sometimes too :D

And As soon as I get one life in order another on falls apart or is in the making of falling apart. That's a cool phrease (..the making of falling apart.) rofl. I'm good. Anyways, I'm back atleast for today. Or some time on here today since I finished all my homework at school. It was actually a pretty good day and I'm not overwhelmed. I actually feel pretty good just a little tired and God compeltely helped me get through today.

I sat by myself today and for the first time just let myself not worry about what people were thinking about me sitting by myself, if I was an outcast or something rofl. I mean, why worry? My real family and friends are Christians anyways and everyone else I can only get so close to. Why envy someone who is holding onto something that is going to slip away when they die. Anyways, this is my reasoning now. I'm relearning how to be happy not having friends. After all, if you can't do that then in my opinion, you don't really deserve them.

As for guys, people have stories and such. Well mine hasn't started yet unless you look at my very sad preface which included Brian lol. I'm just waiting. I like certain guys but you know just from a distance then they start liking someone else and I just do something else lol. I can't be the initiator lol. Cuz even if I could, I don't want to.

Did I mention we have pictures tomorrow? I'm so unphotogenic! lol .It's really just outright sad. But I'm going to curl my hair and fix my bangs and put it up somehow. I haven't figured it out yet and Lord only knows what I'm going to wear.

I'm so loving 70's music right now. All the oldies are just good. That's all there is to it. And so this is my day and my thoughts. I'm just rather fine lol...

butterfly effect. . .

Posting this... [21 Aug 2004|11:12am]
[ mood | bouncy ]
[ music | Turn Back the Hands of Time ~ Tyrone Davis ]

name|
age|
reason for LJ username|
AIM sn|
reason for AIM sn|
do you enjoy reading my LJ|
why?|
interesting fact about you|
weird fact about you|
quote|
will you post this in your LJ|

RECOMMEND
1. a movie|
2. a book|
3. a musical artist, song, or album|
4. an LJ user not on my friends list|
5. something to do in the next two months|


And I left for two days and I had two pages of Friends' pages to go through. Slow down, people! :D

God touched 1 cocoon with the butterfly effect. . .

Quizzes.. [17 Aug 2004|01:37pm]
[ mood | flirty ]
[ music | Sweet Home Alabama ! Lynyrd Skynyrd ]

I love these.




You Are An Independent Girlfriend!


Whoa, Ms. Independent! Your guy digs your modern style...

But he's sometimes left to wonder if you really like him.

Keep that unique spirit, but show him your love a bit more often.

No worries - you're light years away from smothering him!



What Kind Of Girlfriend Are You? Take This Quiz :-)




Find the Love of Your Life
(and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance.





You Are a Feminine Beauty!


You make any guy feel like a man, simply by standing next to him

You have a classic womanly appeal - and you've got a look for every occasion

This doesn't mean that you can't kick back in (designer) jeans and sneakers

You just prefer to be girly and sweet as often as possible




What Type of Beauty Are You? Take This Quiz :-)




Find the Love of Your Life
(and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance.






You Are A Moschino Heart Bag

You're a whimsical, romantic girl with a good does of funky

You've are always in the middle of some adventure, planned or not

Style is something you mastered early on - and you're envied for it

When it comes to you, you're one of a kind ... with many imitators


You are a Playful Date


Your dating philosophy?

"Fun first, romance later"

You rather scream on a roller coaster...

Then stare in to some guy's eyes over dinner.



Guys to look for:

Men with humorous profiles and quirky interests

Sure that business suit guy may look boring...

But if he likes snowball fights, give him a try



What Kind of Date Are You?
Take This Quiz :-)




Find the Love of Your Life
(and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance.
butterfly effect. . .

Mingling sense of doom in a happy day... [17 Aug 2004|01:00pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]
[ music | Just to hear you say that you love me ~ Tim and Faith ]

Why do these thigns happen? Life confuses the heck out of me. Right when you think you have everything figured out and under control something new pops up. In life there is so much to take it you almost never have time to let it all out after it's procesed and registered.

I'm not worried about what I'm going to do with my life. I know God will help me cross that bridge when I come to it, yet the little things in life make me wonder. I analyze my own personality and you wonder where you'll end up in 20 years. Will I have kids and a a husband? WIll I be in Romania watching someone else's kids and teaching school? Will I be single and be teaching English in a public school while I throw life lessons in there somewhere? Will I become a novelist and remain secluded in worlds of my own that work out in the end but never do in reality? Will I make a difference when everyone is so set against what I believe?

I mean there's always hope with God in the few souls that are still looking for him. But there are so many who are set on the majorit population of right and wrong and so many who need logical explanations to accept God, when even if they do accept God under evidence it probably won't make a difference since He works through the souls. A broken soul I might add. How many people are willing to die to live in Jesus? How many people are coming to that point in today's society?

We have everything and even those who don't are wrapped in this bitter cocoon that no one can touch. They're bitter at more than circumstances, they're bitter at everyone. Everyone played a part somehow, whether they did anything or not. Someone who is hurt and couldn't find Jesus is wrapped in a world that is so hard to break through it could take a lifetime and it's in so many people.

Yet as soon as you sell your soul to the world, you're like everyone else. In the end, there is no point. You have to accept reality, you can't be pure and innocent because you're 'square' and naive. yet as soon as you do you're wrapped in doom too. WHat is 'logical' about that? How can people take that and say that's life, accept it? There is nothing beyond this sin and filth we wear everyday. They act like they want to believe that! I'm just confused.

Life for me was never easy in circumstances, only in heart. They say,"You come speking to us nonbelievers about how God changed your life around, yet you still have problems." And they don't get that it's not the world's circumstances that change how you feel inside. And you want to say this to everyone, yet it's said over and over again and no one listens. It's a vicious cycle of self-deceit.

butterfly effect. . .

I should be cleaning... [16 Aug 2004|07:41pm]
[ mood | happy ]
[ music | If Nobody Believed in You ~ Joe Nichols ]

Well, I should be cleaning but I'm not. Well, because I don't feel like it :D I've been going and going all day today.

I wen to the eye doctor's today and I need glasses except our insurance will only pay for the round ones so my face is officially a perfect circle now. I used to have some shape. You look at my glasses and it becomes my whole face lol. Who needs a lense for their cheeks? Explain this to me!

But it was so cool today. I went out to the mailbox and was singing and I turned around and all the horses were heading for the fence right across the street looking right at me lol. They were completely spread out the minute before but as soon as I started singing they came walking my way. But one walked straight up to the fence and put his nose behind it so I kept singing and walked to pet him. Then I turned around and started walking back and I looked back at him and he had his song outside the fence to get even closer lol.

SO I just kept singing and petting him. It was so cool. Those horses ignored everyone for six months until I started singing and all four came up to me. lol. How cool what that? My ultimate God-thing for the day :)

And then we cleaned the post office which was funa nd we're trying to get Dad to agree to letting Mom go out with me to see the Stepford Wives together since he doesn't want to see it. We saw 'The Day after Tomorrow' last night and it was one of the most intense movies I've seen in a LONG time. It was great. If I had extra money I'd buy it. God touched today. It was wonderful

Now I have to clean the kitchen...

butterfly effect. . .

What am I talking about... [15 Aug 2004|12:14pm]
[ mood | rejuvenated ]
[ music | Whisky Lullaby ~ Allison Krauss and Brad Paisly ]

What am I talking about LOL...Jenn, I LOVE this journal. Way more than cool. This compeltely rocks :D

I'm an idiot lol. Seriously, this is GREAT.

God touched 1 cocoon with the butterfly effect. . .

navigation
[ viewing | most recent entries ]
[ go | earlier ]

Advertisement